As the title of my blog indicates, my role as a spanko is to be on the receiving end. I have thoroughly examined my own desires, and I am not a "switch" (someone who enjoys both giving and receiving spankings); I am simply a "sub" (one who only enjoys being on the receiving end).
That being said, I recently had the opportunity to give a spanking, and I had fun doing it. No, that still doesn't make me a switch, since the satisfaction I got from giving a spanking doesn't come close to comparing with the satisfaction I get from receiving a spanking. In fact, most of the fun I had giving a spanking came from me picturing myself in the place of the girl I was spanking, which may have prompted me to be a bit zealous in spanking her.
The person I spanked was a cute girl age 20. Her name is Sarah. We had met before at a spanking Meetup. She is a sub like me, but newer to the spanking scene. We quickly became friends. One day, she expressed her regret that she was having trouble finding suitable spanking partners. Now, Sarah is an absolutely gorgeous girl, so it isn't as if her physical appearance was an issue. A lot of her difficulties had to do with trust. Spankees like me and Sarah have to be careful when it comes to who we allow to spank us, especially since we are female. I pride myself on being very good at picking the right spanking partners and avoiding the creeps, but Sarah was newer to this whole scene and wasn't really sure who she could trust. Since we were friends, she asked if I would consider spanking her.
Now remember that I am a sub, not a switch, so it isn't like spanking Sarah was something I was fantasizing about. However, she is a friend, and I didn't have anything against spanking her, so I agreed to spank her in whichever way she wanted. Fortunately, like me, she also prefers to only be spanked bare. I say "fortunately" because she has a very cute butt that I enjoyed looking at and touching.
We started with a simple OTK hand spanking. I didn't spank very hard because she wanted the spanking to go on for a long time. She took it well. She squirmed more than I would have liked, but that's just how she reacts. We then switched it up a little by continuing the hand spanking in the wheelbarrow position. Being able to see how exposed Sarah was in that position gave me a new appreciation for just how exposed I am when I am being spanked in that position. I found myself fantasizing about being in Sarah's place while I was spanking her. I think these thoughts were the main reason why I had so much fun doing this.
Finally, Sarah decided she would like to end the hand spanking before she became too sore to try anything else. I showed her my collection of spanking implements. She quickly became excited when she saw I had canes in my collection. She had been curious about trying out a cane but had difficulty finding anyone who possessed a cane. On top of that, she was very nervous about trying the cane because of its reputation for severity.
I told Sarah that I once had the exact same concerns that she had about caning. I explained that the cane's reputation for severity is definitely well-deserved, but that being caned is an amazing experience for me and one that I recommend trying at least once. She agreed to end her spanking with a traditional "six of the best" with a cane. I had her bend over and touch her toes for the caning. Using the cane does take skill, but I had practiced swinging it before so that I could show inexperienced spankers how it's used. I have also been on the receiving end enough times to be familiar with good technique.
I gave her six really good strokes with the cane. I hid my amusement at all the screaming she did after each stroke. When it was over, Sarah admitted that the cane was actually more painful than she had expected, but that she wouldn't be opposed to trying it again in the future. We finally ended her spanking my me massaging her butt with cold cream. As I mentioned before, she has a really nice butt, so this was a nice reward for me.
After having some time to reflect on this experience, I think that giving a spanking has been a good experience for me, and has given me more perspective as a sub. I am definitely open to doing it again. That being said, I still consider myself to be a sub. Giving a spanking only gave me vicarious thrills by picturing myself in Sarah's place. Unfortunately, that just isn't the same as the sort of thrill I get from being the one who is spanked.
